Let’s start off with some real honesty, if ANYTHING unjustly happened to my precious dad, Dr. Vic, my mom, two sisters or black and brown friends or children— I would end up like Paul, imprisoned and gladly carrying forth the gospel in a jail ministry. My bones are restless, tired, angry and so sorrowful. I need Jesus every second of the day to be reminded to breathe, to remember He fights for me in the most justified way, I have worth and to most importantly continue heralding the gospel and rejoice.
Growing up as a first generation, African American woman I was always told, “you sound white, your hair is ‘different’, I’d date you if you were white, why is your skin so dark? Racism is over, you’ll be okay.” And the casual usage of the N-word directed to me by peers in middle to high school. My favorite was when my science teacher before a test confidently gave a direct racial slur to me and my Latina classmate because he thought it was funny and chill so I “went along,” with rage buried underneath. Just a normal Tuesday in Physics, I guess.
None of those things above were okay. But since the beginning of this nation people of color learn to adapt and keep going. This suppression/oppression can only last so long…
If you taken time to study American history or learn, then like me you have never been blind to unequal liberty and justice for all in this highly fortunate yet broken country. By God’s grace, I did not experience the era where this same America— enslaved, lynched, HATED countless POC and lest we forget, made human beings as property in the most sickening form of it all.
The recent events of Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, and George Floyd which probably happen at a normal rate is absolute madness. And for the believer who stands with statements like, “Let’s wait till we get all the facts” is sitting in an unGodly tragic mentality of missing the entire point and problem of a hurting people.
The church should hurt. Humanity needs to wake up. Let’s take a look biblically on what drives out hate and why?
“Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-10
We all only know in part. And your and my knowledge will pass away. Some of my white brothers and sisters love to sit on the sidelines because of various factors— fear, pride, don’t know what to say or lack of care or to remain comfortable. That is a spiritual poverty. Repent and walk. If we declare and believe this God of love is real then your belief must align with your actions.
Personally, I always wondered why the Lord saw fit to push love as the greatest? He is God so He can do whatever He wants, but why, love? So then I examine by looking within at my heart and testimony, looking up at the cross and lastly looking out to see a dark broken evil world. Yet there love was when Jesus died for me. My gross, dirty, desperate-needy-hungry-broken soul in need of a new heart and Savior. Looking out there’s more darkness around and in man which allow racism/slavery (globally) to still persist to this day. It is wrong, racism is not okay and you must deal with it.
So, here’s why I write to and plead. I need you to get your hearts, minds and feet— MOVING. If it’s time to repent of wrongdoing and indifference, repent. If it’s time to have the hard conversations with an ignorant grandparent, parent or sibling, have it. If you need to enter into somebody outside of your race’s world, do it. It’s always time to pray so stay fervently praying. But you have access to multiple resources and skills you have been given so PLEASE, use them. You should not be satisfied with the way the United States of America has pledged their allegiance to liberty and justice for all and that statement is not true.
Nobody but God and the people around you know the action that is taken once we all log off these apps and article links. So be a doer not just a hearer or liker.
I believe in the simple gospel truth that the light will always outshine the deepest darkness. Not because of you or me, but because of Christ. Do not repay evil for evil!
If your life is really hard right now, I’m sorry and I can’t imagine that reality on top of the many pandemic others. But Paul calls this, MOMENTARY affliction. A friend the other day said it well after losing his mom to cancer, “Minorities and long sufferers know deeply what it’s like to long for eternity.” I’ve had this longing since I entered this sad world. So as Christ urges, take heart and RISE UP.
God sees us. Remember Jesus and keep fighting for justice my black and brown brothers and sisters.
To my white brothers and sisters, mutually commit to get in this fight. And for the love of God-given emotions, let us grieve and watch your careless rhetoric.
That’s all I got, big dawgs.
Go In Peace,
Rebecca Matimba